My Journey:
3–4 Years in Share Market, Filled with Loss, Hope & Reality

This page is not written to impress anyone. It is written to document what really happens when a normal person enters the share market with dreams and limited understanding.

How Everything Started

I entered the share market like most beginners do — with excitement, curiosity, and hope. At the beginning, everything looked simple. Charts were moving, profits were possible, and YouTube made trading look easy.

Small initial profits created confidence. That confidence slowly turned into overconfidence. I believed I had started understanding the market.

IMAGE: Beginner Phase / First Trading Screen

I increased trade frequency, spent more time watching charts, and started believing that trading daily was the only way to grow. I didn’t realize that I was entering a cycle that most retail traders never escape.

Where the Losses Actually Began

Losses did not come suddenly. They came quietly — one bad trade, one emotional decision, one attempt to recover quickly.

Intraday trading became more aggressive. Quantity increased after losses. Stop-losses were ignored with the hope that the market would reverse.

IMAGE: Drawdown / Red Candles / Loss Phase

I started measuring success not by discipline, but by how much money I could recover in the next trade. That mindset slowly destroyed both capital and confidence.

Options Trading – Hope Turned into Pain

Options trading looked attractive because it required less capital. Premiums were cheap, returns looked big, and recovery felt possible.

What I didn’t understand properly was time decay, strike selection, and probability. Even when my market view was correct, trades still ended in loss.

IMAGE: Options Chain / Premium Decay

Options did not just take money. They took peace of mind. Screens were watched continuously, emotions stayed high, and sleep quality went down.

The Emotional Breakdown

The biggest damage was not financial. It was emotional.

There were days of frustration, self-doubt, and silence. Profits brought temporary happiness. Losses brought stress, anger, and isolation.

IMAGE: Emotional Trading / Stress Phase

Slowly, I realized that the market does not need to defeat traders. Traders defeat themselves through emotions.

What I Finally Understood

After 3–4 years, the total loss was around ₹15–20 lakh. That money was the cost of ignorance, impatience, and learning.

I understood that survival matters more than profits. Discipline matters more than strategies. And staying out of the market is also a valid decision.

This website is created to document these lessons honestly, so that someone else may avoid repeating the same mistakes.